I always wanted to be a person with flawless personality, the one who repeatedly get what he/she want with seemingly effortless. I also want to have a spotlight persona, the one who get an attention with curiously and always been waiting for what the next action, in a word, someone with instantly minded or jack ass person. This happen for the previous five years, and now I realize that was wrong. This year was a rocky times, withdrawing myself from promising institution because of jealous and shocked, there is a reality, I was left by ten or twenty or hundred person out there.

